The Rants & Raves of My Mind

Ohhh the big surprise, what for it, Here it comes....

2006-09-19T00:02:00.000-07:00

Well Guess what Im Sick again......Ahh.

Oh well I have decided to randomly put some pictures on here since I never leave the house and incase u forgot what I looked like.....Just incase.

This is me at my graduation ceremony ----->
This is my Grad Picture

So i did really well on 2 of my test I got: Chemistry 87% and in Physics 73% so not too bad.

And this is the one of the back of my fancy hair do for saras wedding.. cool eh!

So what else to tell u that doesnt involve Final Fantasy XI, Hehehehe I cant think of anything..

So my chocobo is now a Teen and she is so cute. Im now a lvl 22 red mage with a lvl4 sublevel Black mage. I have the coolest linkshell EVER...!!!!!!! They are all the coolest bunch of guys i wish i could hang out with. But the commute would be a B????. But I think one day we should all get together and meet.

Soooo..... now that most of you will have noidea what im talking about im going to say goodnight.

Miss u all and hope to see u soon...if u can drag me out of the house.

Outside World: What the Hell is that

2006-09-10T22:48:00.000-07:00

What my character looks like

Soooo..... For those of u have given up on me. Im sorry. For those of you that haven't quite yet, Thankyou.
I know I have been VERY Tardy about this blog and its not even like i can say that I was busy. Ok so I was sort of, kinda, but not really.

So Catch up time I think. Big one Failed all of my classes last semester and i believe tht was due to 3 things.

1. Got sick for 6 weeks could not keep up
2. Work (42 hours in one week plus full time school sucks)
3. Which is all my fault and so could of been prevent ...... The Bar

So anyways Im now back in school and trying again but there is a problem but i will discuss that in a minute.

So Stan & I went floating the Nechako River almost every weekend for June and July. We went on a trip to Barkerville and Jasper, Just the 2 of us it was very nice.

Jen, Nimmi, and I went to Jasper for a Day trip, Jen, Mel and I went on a day trip to Barkerville.
Nimmi moved to Vancouver to go to school.

I signed back up for my classes for September and January.

And now I have started school again... Now here is the problem I have now became addicted to a PS2 Game called Final Fantasy XI online. They even have a warning on the entrance screen. Anyways Im obsessed and no one gets it. They look at a s just a game, well it is just a game but with real people in it who have become my friend and the only way I can talk to them is through this game. So it sucks in a big way. This our Coat of arms---->

This is the royal section of our city San D'Oria

See I am totally a Dork but i live and breath this game its SOOOOOOO Exciting!

So My life up until Now!

2006-05-24T17:36:00.001-07:00

Well since April I have finally finished this semesters courses. CNC are complete and utter morons as they think I have money left over from some other refund and now won't give me back my money. I had my Birthday on May 11th & no not one flipping person sent me an e-card. Then it was silvie's that was a blast. We went to the bar for both. I went on a trip to Jasper with Jen & Nimmi. That was also a blast. They my friend Jeff got married on April 15th and then my friend Sara got married on May 20 at which I was her Matron of Honor. We all had lots of fun will almost no glitches. And finally I have started my Vegetable & Herb Garden.

On the Left is Sara & Her New Husband Jason Merry

And on the Right is Me with the Bestman Shawn. The little boy in the back ground is Jason's son ,from a pervious relationship, Ryan

Soooooooooo?

2006-04-14T13:28:00.000-07:00

Well my car has surived the trauma it does say that it wants someting new and shiny from stan. It won't forgive him until it gets it. We're thinking some new shiny rear struts. It was very scary though the car says it wasn't being in there that was scary it was the man who ran it that thats scary. We saw him when we picked up the car, YIKES, he was like a house. This is the cars drawing.

Anyways I am so glad I have no school or work today. I have a wedding to go to tommorow. Its one of my good friend that I know for 10 Years. He is marrying a wonderful girl. And we have bought them a big honking present. its so cool I will say what after saturday just incase he some how finds my blog.

So Sorry Dez but most likely I will not be going to ontario. I only have saved up $300.00 so far and I should of had so much more but due to unforseen event I will not be going. So I have decided to use that money to go down to the Skaha bluffs instead. That way Stan and I can go together. Dez I was just being dumb before.

I am totoally in love with Howl From Howl's Moving Castle. The guy is hot. He's even hot is half crow form.

Howl is HOT!!!!!! But only with his black hair. With his blonde hair he's a bit of a fairy. I must buy it. Thankyou Adam for lending it to us.

TTFN to all my loyal readers.

The Trauma of my poor car

2006-04-12T12:14:00.000-07:00

My Poor Baby car was forced into prision, alone with countless other vehicles, by a neanderthal. It was touch, violated and abused by those who took it into custody. What a pervesion was done to my car. It was the first time that it had been forciablly taken away not allowed to see its home, unsure when it would ever see familiar faces again. Who knows what those other vehicles iniciation requirements were for my poor car. Violation, thiefery, assult, who can tell. Will my car come out with trauma in need of years of psychotherapy? Will it crindge everytime it sees a stranger? Is it marked for life and an easy target?

Individuals I Know

2006-03-23T02:08:00.000-08:00

God I am SO Fucking sick of over sensitive drunk Assholes who even when you are defending them think you are insulting them. I am Fucking sick of it. I am SO fucking mad that this person or persons should be god damm thankful that their not drinking & eating out of a straw because one more fucking word and they would of been lying on the floor.

So help me god I will Pound these persons into the ground next time they have a stupid fucking hissy fit. AAAAAGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

Death to Fucking Hissy fitting Asshole AAAAGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

No I promise I am perfectly insane, no thats not right uhmmm lets try that again I am perfectly Insane, no no no I mean Sane thats right Sane!

My so called Life

2006-03-20T13:05:00.000-08:00

So I am getting much better and I only have a sniffly nose and some occasional sneezing oh and annoying cough. Anyways.....

I am planning to go to the Skaha Bluffs at the end of august. its kinda expensive with 2 people but totally worth it. Stan and I are thinking about taking the 4 Day Rock climbing course. Its like almost 600.00 each but wow is it going to be worth it. They teach you everything you have ever wanted to know about rock climbing even rock climbing rescue how sweet is that.

It is suppose to be BC's best rock Climing Bluffs according to Beautiful British Columbia Magazine. I went on line to the Skaha Adventures website and the pictures are just awsome.

I hope Dez can come with us but if not I will miss her. I will take lots of pictures while I am in Ontario & Pentiction. Do you realize I have mever been to the okanagan. The fathest I have been down in that corner is Kamloops.

Anyways I am so annoyed I am trying to save money for my trip and my boss forgot to pay me for 13 hours of work and 2 hours of over time. So I still have only $250 saved for my trip. So not cool. AGH!!!!! anyways I will get it on my next cheque but thats not the point. I had a PLAN and now its gone all wonky. Here is another pic of the skaha bluffs.

Cough, Achoo, Sniff, Hack

2006-03-15T01:04:00.000-08:00

Ok well I have been pretty much dying since I wrote the last week and sorry Dez no such luck on the healthy upswing.

So since then my store opened a new section which caused me 2 weeks of sheer horrible stress like 47 hour in 1 week horrible and then to top it off the idiot construction workers who were here one of them had a cold. Ack OMG can I ever stay away from sick people.

Well anyways the department was tarped off from the rest of the store which made it like 10 degrees hotter in there (perfect virus breeding ground) and Mr. sniffles working usually only like 6-10 feet from me at any given day gives me his FREAKING cold. (oh ya and by the way I made the mistake of telling them I was from Ontario, Then they really started to talk to me) so yep I got sick again! So then they left and on monday I had a start of a sinus cold, God Taylor should DIE!(Mr. Sniffles) So now it is 1 week and 1 day and Im finally getting over it and in the mean time I have had loads of test and 2 Midterms which I am sure I failed.

So I have come to the conclusion that I am not going to take that math course in the summer and I am going to go to Ontario to visit my family for 2 weeks to get away from school, work and & stress.

(Picture is of London Ontario, where I am going, my Home Town)

OMFG

2006-02-23T01:59:00.000-08:00

Ok I have decided that the world breeds stupid people and I don't mean like the stupid people who make a left turn when they ment to make a right turn or the person who just threw out their cream cheese bagel out by accident stupid. I mean the really really stupid ones like your mother is your aunt, grandmother and second cousin twice removed stupid.

Ok listen to this I just read in our local news paper that some 4o year old gay man got HIV. Ok so thats not really nice but get this and I quote " I have just turned 40, having lived my entire gay life believing that HIV was no major threat....." WTF Has this moron lived under a rock all 40 of those years. I can clearly remember my teachers in the THIRD Grade telling me how horrible and Deadly HIV is and this guy is only 13 years older than me. Did he miss all the pamphlets in High School.

And for another thing people were really stupid back then. They though you could get it from touching someone. (rolls my eyes) Anyways, this guy continues to get even dumber as he writes and I quote" ...should I continue to have have unsafe sex...Will my kidneys and liver stay healthy....Will I eventually run out of choices and die?" Oh my god Can one person be this stupid. I actually shutter to think that there is more of them out there.AGHHHHH

Well new topic, I am feeling alot better. I have finnished all my honking pills and have no new symptomes. Hopfully that is the last time I get sick this year (yes I know it is a new year) because that was expensive and cost me alot of good grades.

I thin I will try to stay away from the bars because that is were I seem to pick all this crap up plus that and staying up WAY too late and drinking and trying to get to class for 8 am. That does not go over to well with ones body. It tends to protest a weee bit.

I started to do pilates today. All most died so it was working well.

I did my cashiers training today. I was so boring yet fun at the same time as my friend and I have both worked on tills for at least 6 years. So the training was really easy so we decided to play customer/cashier and try to rack up high bills and give may forms of payment. Really what one individual needs 38 pkgs of Newborn Huggies.

Anyways, I Miss Dez, Silvie, and a whole lot of other people but Im too tired to think at this moment so I will hunt you all down and tell you one by one.

HA HA HA Ha Ha ha ha hz hz zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz (Fell Asleep)

I want a refund!

2006-02-10T15:08:00.000-08:00

Ok so I have totally decided that like a car my body is a lemon and I should be allowed to return it on the basis of a manufacture defect.

It sucks I have been to the walk-in clinic once, the hospital twice, and my family doctor twice. Now here is the bad part. This was all in less than a 3 week span.

OMG WTF

AAARRRRRGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!

And you know what that is not even the best part in total in that 3 week span I have had a total of 5 prescriptions and 1 over the counter medication. 2 of those alone cost just under $70.00. Thank god for my 100% Prescription coverage at my work (I do have to pay first, send in the forms, and then wait for the money but at least I get it back) It still hurts my pocket book.

My kidneys now feel like I have been punched several times. I feel uncomfortable all the time now. Any ways the pills I have to take are HUGE! The ones in the picture are not the right dosage I am taking 1000mg.

OWCHIEEEEE 2

2006-02-05T16:21:00.000-08:00

Good God

Can anyone recommend a good place to get a replacement body because mines broken. Its as bad as a car, one thing breaks, gets fixed, then the god damm thing breaks again.

This time its my damm head. It feels like someone is trying to push their thumb through my forehead and yes most of you will say its just sinus pressure but you know what YOU DON'T HAVE A PIECE OF METAL IN YOUR HEAD SO BLAH

Right now I am imagining that it is a micro probe that has been sitting in my head for years and now has activated and whipped out long metal whippers and is scrambling my brain.

Oh well its an idea but I don't think my doctor will think its funny, too bad for him. Phhhhhhhhhhhh.

(Oh and by the way he actually did find it some what funny and he said that since it was more interesting I should go with that theory)

OWCHIEEEE

2006-01-22T05:25:00.000-08:00

Ok Well now Im sick I feel like I have swallowed glass and damm does it hurt to swallow. I just woke up after only being asleep for 3 1/2 hours and now my left ear is completely plugged and hurts like a son-of-a-bitch. Its almost worth cring over but not right now.

I had to go to work last night and it sucked I thought I was going to pass out. Most people say I probably have strep throat one person even went as far as to say I have mono. well beside my husaband the last peoson I exchanged saliva with was in July and we were accidently chewing on each others pens. we switched back.

Owie Owie Owie my ear frigin hurts. Oh well such is the life of a germ i guess. By for now.

The Inanity of the Goverment Controlled Bodies

2006-01-17T14:57:00.000-08:00

Today I recieved a letter in the post from my student loan whatevers. Anyways They decided that I owed them money. No Big surprise there. So I called them up and this retarded guy informed me that Suppositly I never faxed them a paper telling them to stop taking payments out of my bank account(which I did) and I was nicely making double payments.

But here is the catch for some reson(the guy I taked to previously like months ago) told me that I only had to pay 36.00 a month to them now it seems that I actually owe them 36.26 a month and I was in arreres for it. Anyways by the time I was done talking to his asshole I was ready to pull him through the phone and beat him to death.

GOVERMENT SUCKS!!!!!!!!!

Oh and by the way my asshole of a father had left for Mackenzie 2 days ago and guess what HE"S BACK! Oh Joy! He is soooooooooooooooooooooooooo dumb. Like I have never seen a more Computer iliterate person in my life. I am actually positive that I could teach a blind baboon to use a computer more efficiantly then he could in his life time. Like good example: I told him when i bought him his computer that he would not be able to open and document files because I had not installed any type of program to do that. Well today he informs me that his computer is acting "Weird" and won't let him open a word document. "Now why do you think that could be?!?!?!?!? I wonder?!?!?! Idiot.

Any ways I also managed only a 68.5% on my physics test not quite what I hoped for but oh well

Bye for now.

My Stupid Life

2006-01-17T00:41:00.000-08:00

I have decided that since this my first time writing on a blog or having one I will say this;

I have often wondered what I have done in this life to deserve my family!

And by family I mean immediate blood related family for those of you that know alot about me. I do not understand why, for any good reason what so ever, why I should be blessed with my family. It almost and I use that word very loosly almost NEVER want to have children! The men in my family are ,pardon the expression, "FUCKING retarded". I hate actually HATE the men in my family. They Piss me off in the greatest of ways. I have never had so much hatered for 2 people in my life.

I am still not sure if this is a good thing or not to write everything I feel down and online but it does feel good to see words on a screen and see how I actually feel.

Anyways, Back to my Ranting, I understand alot of things in this world but for the life of me I cannot fathom why a parent will try to help a child that literally screws your life: finacially & romantically over time and time again. I mean are you really that stupid. A childs pilfering from your wallet or purse can be excused and dealt with properly but what about stealing thousands and thousand of dollars from your credit card or steal your valuables and tells you to "just go and get them back" if you want them. And in the same sense to have a child who does nothing but try to help you, took sympathy on you, & works hard to help you out, you tell them to " Stop Fucking around with your life and get on with it" Yet they are in school, have a job, and are married where the other one has yet to hold a real job down for more than 2 weeks and leaches & steals from his girlfriend(who his is or used to be unfaithful to). Then the same little asshole ruins Christmas dinner and the parent still believes he needs to look out for that child.

AHHHHHGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! God it makes me SOOOOOO Mad and at the same time I just want to cry because I have uterly no idea what to do. I want to run awayt as I did before but at the same time I just want help. I am so uterly confused. I want to Hate but at the same Time I want to help.

But through all of this there is one bright light: My Husband
Without him I would be truly lost and alone.
I know I have my friends but they only know what I tell them and are never here when it all happens. I do not wish them to be apart of what I deal with, I really don't want my husband to be apart of this but once again I have made the mistake of letting my family into my life.