The Rants & Raves of My Mind

I have decided that not only must my friends listen to my insessive ranting and raving about my disturbing life but so must everyone else that can access this blog. I will only give you one fair warning that I do have alot of Ranting to do.

Sunday, January 22, 2006


Ok Well now Im sick I feel like I have swallowed glass and damm does it hurt to swallow. I just woke up after only being asleep for 3 1/2 hours and now my left ear is completely plugged and hurts like a son-of-a-bitch. Its almost worth cring over but not right now.

I had to go to work last night and it sucked I thought I was going to pass out. Most people say I probably have strep throat one person even went as far as to say I have mono. well beside my husaband the last peoson I exchanged saliva with was in July and we were accidently chewing on each others pens. we switched back.

Owie Owie Owie my ear frigin hurts. Oh well such is the life of a germ i guess. By for now.

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

The Inanity of the Goverment Controlled Bodies

Today I recieved a letter in the post from my student loan whatevers. Anyways They decided that I owed them money. No Big surprise there. So I called them up and this retarded guy informed me that Suppositly I never faxed them a paper telling them to stop taking payments out of my bank account(which I did) and I was nicely making double payments.

But here is the catch for some reson(the guy I taked to previously like months ago) told me that I only had to pay 36.00 a month to them now it seems that I actually owe them 36.26 a month and I was in arreres for it. Anyways by the time I was done talking to his asshole I was ready to pull him through the phone and beat him to death.


Oh and by the way my asshole of a father had left for Mackenzie 2 days ago and guess what HE"S BACK! Oh Joy! He is soooooooooooooooooooooooooo dumb. Like I have never seen a more Computer iliterate person in my life. I am actually positive that I could teach a blind baboon to use a computer more efficiantly then he could in his life time. Like good example: I told him when i bought him his computer that he would not be able to open and document files because I had not installed any type of program to do that. Well today he informs me that his computer is acting "Weird" and won't let him open a word document. "Now why do you think that could be?!?!?!?!? I wonder?!?!?! Idiot.

Any ways I also managed only a 68.5% on my physics test not quite what I hoped for but oh well

Bye for now.

My Stupid Life

I have decided that since this my first time writing on a blog or having one I will say this;

I have often wondered what I have done in this life to deserve my family!

And by family I mean immediate blood related family for those of you that know alot about me. I do not understand why, for any good reason what so ever, why I should be blessed with my family. It almost and I use that word very loosly almost NEVER want to have children! The men in my family are ,pardon the expression, "FUCKING retarded". I hate actually HATE the men in my family. They Piss me off in the greatest of ways. I have never had so much hatered for 2 people in my life.

I am still not sure if this is a good thing or not to write everything I feel down and online but it does feel good to see words on a screen and see how I actually feel.

Anyways, Back to my Ranting, I understand alot of things in this world but for the life of me I cannot fathom why a parent will try to help a child that literally screws your life: finacially & romantically over time and time again. I mean are you really that stupid. A childs pilfering from your wallet or purse can be excused and dealt with properly but what about stealing thousands and thousand of dollars from your credit card or steal your valuables and tells you to "just go and get them back" if you want them. And in the same sense to have a child who does nothing but try to help you, took sympathy on you, & works hard to help you out, you tell them to " Stop Fucking around with your life and get on with it" Yet they are in school, have a job, and are married where the other one has yet to hold a real job down for more than 2 weeks and leaches & steals from his girlfriend(who his is or used to be unfaithful to). Then the same little asshole ruins Christmas dinner and the parent still believes he needs to look out for that child.

AHHHHHGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! God it makes me SOOOOOO Mad and at the same time I just want to cry because I have uterly no idea what to do. I want to run awayt as I did before but at the same time I just want help. I am so uterly confused. I want to Hate but at the same Time I want to help.

But through all of this there is one bright light: My Husband
Without him I would be truly lost and alone.
I know I have my friends but they only know what I tell them and are never here when it all happens. I do not wish them to be apart of what I deal with, I really don't want my husband to be apart of this but once again I have made the mistake of letting my family into my life.
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